Long Break

I haven’t been here in awhile.

Things have been difficult.

I don’t know how to truly explain it.

My world has been crashing all around me.

Work ended up not living up to what it is suppose to be.

I got Bariatric surgery as a way out.

But it still sucked me back in.

Love life is nonexistent.

But that was never real in the first place.

Family is having a hard time understanding my pain.

But they never truly did.

Someday this will change.

Hopefully someday soon.

I am able to manifest my negative.

But no matter how hard I try

The positive just doesn’t seem to come true.



So I took a year long break from my blog due to multiple reasons. Mostly that I was very afraid of the things that were coming out when I wrote. But Im back to speak about my ongoings and the goings on of the things around.For now I am just going to mention some basic ramblings such as ; started a new job, got over my ex coworkers/friends, started a weird long distance relationship I dont think I really want to be in and many other things. I am going to become dedicated to my writings again as they helped me feel better and encouraged me to make many changes in my life. Well heres to going back to expressing myself in the best way I know how. Till next time.

First Fail

So I posted my recipe for my smoothie that I was going to have today last night. It seemed fine as I prepped it and smelled the wonderful mix of smells as I cut everything up, but in the end I had my first smoothie creation FAIL. I learned that even though I enjoy celery with a good plate of buffalo wings or in a delicious macaroni or mixed in to my fantastic chicken salad, it does not, let me repeat, it does not go good in a smoothie. Even when I recreated the recipe by reducing the amount of celery it still did not help and I just had to suck it down and accept it as my first smoothie fail. This is my first time in my adult life making my own smoothies containing vegetables and therefore I believe I may experience more fails but I can’t allow them to cause me to falter from achieving my goal and sticking to my plan. Well until tomorrow, no prep for me tonight work wore me out.

I Love my Curves, but LOVE my HEALTH more!


So as I prep for tomorrow I decided to Double up and see what happens when I have a smoothie for Breakfast and as a part to a small lunch such as half of a wheat pita stuffed with a spinach salad.

Tuesdays Smoothie:

5 Slices of Cucumber

1/2 of Anjou Pear

10 Blueberries

1/2 leaf of Kale

1/2 stalk of celery

1/2 of an orange


I made two ready blend cups. I will probably add ice right before I blend them or after the initial  blend and also I will add some ginger water. I need to shed some poundage before we start our contest at work so I don’t feel extra fat compared to everyone else. I already know I am the heaviest but I can do this. I should also make note that I am restarting a tea regiment of a glass of hot tea every night before bed. Also that I will continue my infused waters. I was thinking of mixing up my usual lemon and cucumber by doing a grapefruit water and possibly a ginger water  . Eventually doing some sort of mixture of those four to keep my body up on it. And no I am not just changing my eating habit and think that is going to be how I loose my weight I have a workout regiment I will do and I will also continue my Tibetan Yoga techniques that were discontinued during my reminder that I am not with child. 


I love my CURVES but  LOVE my HEALTH more!!!

So it Has Begun

So I have started my journey to a ” Brand New Me” and I must say I am doing well.

I had a smoothie in place of a meal (lunch) yesterday and one today (dinner).

I think I can handle this and my obnoxious downstairs neighbors hate the sound of my blender lol.

So I figured I would keep account of the smoothies that I make so here are the first two recipes created by Me.


1 Whole Banana

4 Frozen Strawberries

8 Frozen Blueberries

2 Leaves of Kale

5 Leaves of Spinach

1/4 cup of Milk


1 Sprig of Parsley

2 Fresh Strawberries

5 Blueberries

5 Leaves of Spinach

1/2 Banana

1/4 cup of water

1 Anjou Pear


5 Ice Cubes

I Love My CURVES, but Love my HEALTH more!

Healthier Me

So lately I have restarted my battle with my weight. Why? well there is multiple reasons:

  • Summer is coming
  • New attractive male co-worker
  • Others who are making great progress
  • Depression- as in I am over it
  • Tired of being alone

Alot of these reasons are vain and superficial I know but they are reasons that are helpful for me to get my lazy behind back in the shape i use to be. Where taking a flight of stairs didn’t wind me. I know how to be healthy and I know the things to do to take care of myself properly but it  gets hard due to financial restraints.


At work we are going to be doing a Biggest Loser competition. I have no plans to win it but I am going to do it just because it’s easier to loose weight when you do it with others. There was an argument about doing it by percentages instead of pounds because that isn’t fair to everyone, but I think either way it is going to be unfair but it’s whatever I just want to start to feel happy again. Which lately I feel very rarely.

So step one to making this happen is I am going to start a Smoothie a day regiment. Then slowly wain my body off of meats and poultry and fish and starches. Replacing these things with more raw fruits and vegetables. Leading up to first doing an all fruit and vegetable  fast then doing just an all juice fast (if I ever purchase a Juicer) or even if I do it as a smoothie fast I know I can do it. I know the supplements that will be needed if not I have access to the books that will inform me of what I need.I can do this and I wont put the weight back on this time.

I LOVE my curves, but I LOVE my HEALTH even more.